What makes me happy?

Background story: So, my first blog post was kind of an introduction where I announced a comeback to the world of blogging. I also asked people to suggest some topics for the blog. I did receive some wonderful suggestions and one of it was to write about the things that make me happy. The suggestion came from someone I really admire so I had to write about it.

11.02.2020 – This had to be the day for me to scout deep within and identify the things that make me happy. I swear on god! Looking within and trying to know yourself is the most difficult task! I have been pondering on it and came up with a list…

Writing

Reading

Eating

Old songs

Family

My hair

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Here is the list and it has 4 things to it but then these are the things I like and I do them as an outlet… to express myself. They do make me happy for some time. Like writing is something that assures me that I have expressed myself and someone out there understands me without actually talking to me about the things that affect me. Reading makes me feel fulfilled. It makes me feel important. As a writer, I know how important it is to have a reader who sees through the words and feels each emotion. So these activities feed my soul but they are more like hunger… they make me happy for some time and things are back to normal.

This brings me back to square A!!! I am still trying to identify what actually makes me happy and that is when I understand that I have been trying to look for things that make me happy. But finding happiness in things is temporary. True happiness for me comes from within and I realized that I make myself the happiest. As narcissist as I sound, it is absolutely true. I love how I have turned out to be and my beautiful transition is what makes me the happiest best.

From a naïve, shy and under-confident girl to a strong, confident and intelligent woman, I feel that I have had a good graph. I do bitch about people (come-on! That is a basic human thing) but I still try to keep judgmental comments to myself! I don’t make fun of fat people or I don’t like people for their beauty. I have never had a crush on a person because of his good looks nor do I try to go out of my way to compete with my rich friends. I am still trying to understand things like is good actually good because the society calls it good or are movies and books the only reason behind our current definition of beautiful?! Well, I have a treasure of such questions. Another quality I really like is that I don’t quit on people! I have this amazing talent to wait for people to come back. I don’t let go of people easily because I value them but again, once I’m done, I’m done for good! I don’t hate people I just leave them. Of all the things that run through my mind, I know that I am a decent person, who isn’t attracted to superficial things. I have strong opinions but I don’t judge people for doing what they like. I stick with people even though I don’t enjoy everyday phone calls.

So the answer to “what makes you happy?” is “ME”. I am my own happiness. I have my pros and cons, good and bad and I am not in denial about them. I have accepted myself and that I feel is not just happiness but liberation too… After this knowledge, I am now planning to go on a date with myself very soon. May be on the Valentines Day!

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