Happily forever...

Sitting in the bathroom, thinking about random yet deep things has always been one of my favourite pass-time! Most of my blogs were born there and the mere idea to write this one originated there. I knew I had to write about it… so bad… I also made some notes on my phone…

But now that I got time, I don’t know how or where to start…

2 HOURS 50 MINUTES LATER…

I will have to go back to the time when I had my heart broken (for the first time). I knew that it was coming, that my heart was going to break and things would change forever and how did I respond? By ignoring reality…

But it happened anyway… the person I trusted the most, my best friend, someone I thought would be on my side... "left"

It sucked to know that everything I believed in was bullshit… I have been a person who believed in destiny, fairytales, soulmates, magic and true love and it all snapped!

It took years for the pain to go away. Grief and rivers of tears drenched me from tip to toe but like they say... time heals everything and it did heal my heart. I started believing in fairytales and a happily ever after again! I would hear stories of Arjun, Krishna, and Shiva; read war-time love stories, and dream of a courageous knight who would fight the world to be with me…

My belief and desire for a “happily forever” grew with time…

I met people, we clicked, time passed and things ended at what Joey calls “the moo point”.

I saw the same happening to people around me – they get together, post “oh so lovely” pictures on Instagram, time passes and they start finding “reasons not to be together”.

This made me question my happily ever after! Will there ever be one? Will I ever be able to find someone who’d fight the world for me? Will I be able to find my hero?

With the word hero lingering in my head, I went back in time to the person who stopped when I said no… wasn’t he a hero? And the guy who wasn’t afraid of flushing the toilet for me… and the one who sent chocolates and a heat bag when I was on my period, aren’t they all my super heroes who contributed towards my happily ever after? Gods were heroes fulfilling their duties, war martyrs were heroes because of the situations around them but the guys in my life? All they were doing was looking after me by being themselves. They did not have a message to pass on to the world nor were they fighting a war and still, they proved their heroics through their respectful gesture!

Now, I am left with this question – is forever about being together, or is it about remembering the happy times together forever?